1-31-99

To all of the Magnificent Spiritual Beings on my e-mailing list,

I am going to quickly give you the details about new changes to the Joy to You & Me Web site so that we can get that out of the way, because I want to get into the meat of this update.

The major development is that I am now set up to take all 4 major credit cards and checks (US only) online.  On my book ordering page http://www.silcom.com/~joy2meu/joy_22.htm  I have links to a secure web site that is set up to process credit cards and checks in real time though a company called Authorize.net whom I believe to be completely reliable.  I am offering special deals on my book Codependence: The Dance of Wounded Souls and the audio tape set of my book.  For the prices I have listed, I will ship the book and tapes anywhere in the world via United States Postal Service Air Mail.  Although it is far too expensive to insure or register these packages, I trust the USPS enough to risk mailing in this way with a guarantee that if it doesn’t arrive I will send a replacement.  (I also trust that anyone in tune enough Spiritually to be ordering my book will not abuse this guarantee - Karma is pretty powerful insurance in my reality.) 

I have set the prices in such a way as to cover the shipping and packaging etc. and still sell you the book at a price somewhat below retail.  Since my computer and web authoring program are both fairly primitive according to present day standards, I do not have the capacity to set up interactive forms that can compute the exact shipping and handling to various destination - but rather have to set one price for each item or combination.  (If anyone would like a price set for multiple copies, or any bookstore would like to order, please send me an e-mail and I will set up a price link for what you need.)  So, at this time I am offering to ship anywhere in the world for the prices I have set.  I mention on the ordering page that I have gotten hits (that I know of - at this time I don’t have the capacity and/or financial resources to track hits to any page but my home page - so I do not know where the great majority of my hits are originating.) from all over Europe, the Middle East, and the Far East (including Pakistan, Japan, Singapore, Taiwan, and Korea in addition to lots of folks from Australia and New Zealand), Canada and Mexico - and for the first time yesterday from South Africa.

I have been conscious, since I first received the book from the printer, that each book I sent out was like a pebble in the pond of Collective Human Consciousness - and that some day all of the ripples would come together in a wave.  I was also conscious that the pattern in recent years - for books that contained some Cosmic Truth vital to the Spiritual Awakening (and The Second Coming of the Message of Love that I mention in 99 #1 part 1) that is happening on the planet - was that it has been taking about 3 years for consciousness of the book to reach Critical Mass.  Once Critical Mass is achieved then awareness of the book explodes into public consciousness - everyone is suddenly talking about it. This has been the pattern for such books as The Celestine Prophecy and Conversations with God.
 

Critical Mass here refers to The Hundredth Monkey Principle which you can read about on my page about The New Age - An Age of Healing & Joy at http://www.silcom.com/~joy2meu/joy_16.htm  (There is a web site in England that awarded me it’s dubious science award for this page.  Since they were reading the excerpt from my book reproduced there out of context, it is possible that they weren’t aware of the paradigm I work within - although more likely they didn’t have high enough consciousness to realize - that I really don’t care about their view of what scientific “fact” is - what I care about is what feels like Truth to me.)  In relationship to the story of the monkeys, my role in this Awakening drama that is unfolding has been and continues to be a messenger, a pathfinder who like the monkey Imo in the story shows the way/creates new space/enlarges the paradigm of consciousness so that other’s might follow.  I am one of many “Imo”s carrying out assignments in alignment with the Divine Plan.  I have been given the honor and privilege (like every gift in this Cosmic Play, it is both a blessing and a curse) of this role because I really screwed up in some other lifetimes and have some heavy Karma to settle.  When I stated in the part 1 of this Newsletter that   “ . . my theme for 1999 - the thing that I get to stand in front of audiences; or sit in TV studios or radio stations; or typing at my computer communicating to the world  - and say is - 'I AM A MESSIAH  . . . . . . . . . . .  . . . . and so are You!'”  - that is me playing my part in pushing the envelope/enlarging the paradigm/being an Imo.

My book, The Dance of Wounded Souls, is unique and different and special in some very important ways.  In it:  I show the interrelationship of multiple levels of reality ranging from the Cosmic to the cultural to the interpersonal to the intrapersonal - which brings us full circle back to the Cosmic;  I reveal some things about the cause of the Human Dilemma that have never been said before to my knowledge;  and I explain how the individual being can change their relationship with themselves and life so that they can enjoy life more.  It is one of the most important books ever written and this is the year that it reaches Critical Mass. Soon, most everyone on a healing/Spiritual/recovery path will be talking about it.  And one of you Magnificent Spiritual Beings out there in cyberspace reading this Newsletter just may be the Hundredth Monkey.

I have also made some small changes to the Links page - adding a web site that is taking a poll on The  Most Inspirational Book ever written.  I have added a new Question and Answer page - one that deals with smoking cigarettes.  And have made a few changes on the indexQA page.  One of them being that the only way to get to this Newsletter is through Newsletter 1999 #1 part 1   I have done this as a way of trying to ensure that anyone getting to these pages does so with an idea of the context within which I am speaking. Although, as I said in the 11-22-98 update, I am willing to burn at the stake again if that is necessary - I am not going to go out of my way to invite the opportunity.

I have also added a new page which I explain below.

So now to get down to the important stuff.

In part one of this initial 99 newsletter I mentioned  (quotes from that Newsletter are in green):

A.  “I am sure that some of the rest of you have noticed that the planetary healing process just got turned up a notch . . . " 

“Incredible, magical wonderful changes are taking place as the impact of all of our individual healing processes catalyze the transformation that is taking place in the Consciousness on the planet. 

“I am going to be talking about those changes some more in part 2 of this newsletter.  There are two parts to this one because so many changes are happening on all levels, and my life is so full and busy - I am going through so many layers of growth at such an accelerated pace - that I have had to break this update in two.” 

 Well, 2 parts isn’t even going to come close to holding all the “Incredible, magical wonderful changes are taking place” - I will have another update in 10 days or so (Newsletter 99 #2), and another one 10 days to 2 weeks after that (Newsletter 99 #3).  It will probably be 99 #3 before I get into very many details about the Mystical knowledge and insights that are being revealed.  This will include information about Twin Souls and Souls Mates (2 very different categories of Kindred Spirits) and previously unpublished excerpts from both Book I “In The Beginning . . . .” & Book II “Atlantis, Mu, & Jesus too”  of my Magical, Mystical, Spiritual Fable The Dance of the Wounded Souls Trilogy.  This new level of information will in fact probably not even be included in this web site (Joy to You & Me) but will be in a new version of the web site (Joy to Me and You) which I will be launching in early February at my own domain address Joy2MeU.com - Joy to You & Me will continue indefinitely at it’s present address while Joy to Me and You will have much more of a Metaphysical focus. The “planetary healing process” that just kicked up a notch will be reaching new levels of critical mass and continuing to accelerate in the coming months - More is Being Revealed at a very rapid pace.

B. “I will be sending out part two in about 10 days.  It will be announcing new articles that include some insights on Love and Romantic Relationships in time for Valentines Day but more importantly pertaining to the Second Coming of the message of Love which we are all taking part in now.”

“ . . . a funny thing happened on my way to getting the latest changes made to the web site - my life exploded in an Amazing, Magnificent, Miraculous, Magical, Fiery eruption of Joy & Love & Dazzling Light.”

I will in this Part 2 bring you up to date on the outlines of the catalytic events in my life that caused the explosion - the  “Amazing, Magnificent, Miraculous, Magical, Fiery eruption of Joy & Love & Dazzling Light” - but will not have the new articles with the insights on Love and the dynamics of Romantic Relationships until Newsletter 99 #2.  This should be before Valentines Day as I am doing a new workshop for the first time on February 13th entitled Dysfunctional Romantic Relationships & Toxic Love - and I intend to get them written for that workshop. 

The exception to this - besides what I am about to share with you in this Newsletter - is that I am at this time publishing “A Wedding Prayer / Meditation on Romantic Commitment   http://www.silcom.com/~joy2meu/WeddingPrayer.html

Here are two short excerpts from that meditation which I wrote for two friends who made a sacred commitment to each other on New Years Eve.
 

"You are together because you resonate on the same wave lengths, you fit together vibrationally, in such a way that together you form a powerful energy field that helps both of you access the Higher Vibrational Energy of Love, Joy, Light, and Truth - in a way that would be very difficult for eitherone of you to do by yourself.  You are coming together to touch the face of God.  You are unitingyour energies to help you access the Love of the Holy Mother Source Energy.

You are not the source of each other’s Love.  You are helping each other to access the LOVE that is the Source.

The Love that you see when you see your soul in the others eyes is a reflection of the LOVE that you are.  Of the Unconditional Love that the Great Spirit feels for you.

It is very important to remember that the other person is helping you to access God’s LOVE within you - not giving you something that you have never had before."

"The more you do your healing and follow your Spiritual path the more moments of each day you will have the choice to Truly be present in the moment.

And in the moment you can make a choice to embrace and feel the Joy fully and completely and with Gusto.

In any specific moment you will have the power to make a choice to feel the Love in that moment as if you have never been hurt and as if the Love will never go away.

Completely absolutely unconditionally with fearless abandon you can embrace the Love and Joy in the moment.

Glory in it!"

Now for the “Amazing, Magnificent, Miraculous, Magical, Fiery eruption of Joy & Love & Dazzling Light”

Last summer, three slight but ultimately - in hindsight - very significant insights were reveled which led to shifts in my relationship with my self that manifested recently.

1.  I got in touch (in a CoDA meeting I think) with the fact that I was totally shut down to the romantic in me.  Like all of the inner child places and archetypes within me - I had spent most of my life reacting to the romantic within me by swinging to extremes (I will have an article on this dynamic and how important it is to set internal boundaries with various inner parts of ourselves ready for #2).  I would let my “endless, aching need” to find “her” lead me to casting the “wrong” person in the part of the princess in my romantic fairy tale - and then when I got really hurt by allowing the romantic to be in control - I would shut down to it completely.  I would throw the romantic me into an inner dungeon and throw away the key - until some time years later when I would repeat the pattern by letting the romantic take over again.

It made me sad to realize that I had left the romantic locked away for quite awhile again.  The romantic within me is one of my favorite parts of me.  The idealist and dreamer - creative and spontaneous and very Loving.  I decided that I would start opening up to letting the romantic out on parole to see if it was possible to be open to doing a relationship in balance.  I heard myself saying to people: that hurt was inevitable and should be accepted as part of the path;  that it was better to Love and lose then to never to take the risk of Loving; that the only way to really learn how to do a relationship was in one; that relationships that didn’t work out were lessons - not mistakes, not a “wrong” choice; and other such Truths - and realized that once more I was teaching what I needed most to learn.  Theoretically I knew these things to be True - but on an emotional level I was absolutely terrified of intimacy because I didn’t trust myself to make good choices. 

I could see clearly that though I said I was trying to heal my relationship phobia - I had been basically unavailable for relationship for over 5 years since a 2 year living together relationship ended.   About 4 years ago I had a short fling with a really good woman who I wasn’t emotionally mature enough to appreciate (it is of course possible to be very wise, competent, and mature in many areas and completely immature in others - intimate relationships being the foremost area of immaturity for many of us.  For me that immaturity had to do with giving power to the 15 year within me - see internal boundaries article I will be writing next week).  And then had two “dating” relationships with women who weren’t even a remote possibility to be “her.”  (I will be talking about the “her” or “him” phenomena in the Twin Soul/Soul Mate article that I will be writing sometime soon.)  The last “dating” situation was like a manifestation of my disease - with me attempting to rescue the most wounded, negative part of me as manifested in a very wounded woman.  That one scared me so much that I shut down to any possibility of a relationship and put up my force shield that gives off those stay away vibes - for well over a year by last summer.

So, when I had the insight about the romantic within me, I started considering the possibility that maybe I might do a relationship again one of these days - possibly.  (Change starts with surrendering to being open to considering the possibility.)

2.  In doing my daily prayers and affirmations (which I don’t always do daily by the way) I was led to add a phrase to one of my affirmations.  It changed from “I am a magnificent Spiritual Being full of Light and Love.  I am radiantly beautiful and  vibrantly healthy” to “radiantly beautiful, vibrantly healthy, and Joyously Alive.”  Six months later, I am more Joyously Alive than I had ever imagined possible - affirmations work folks.

3.  In another part of my affirmations, a slip of my tongue (I always pay attention to those “Freudian” slips) cause me to mention my twin soul in an affirmation about how “emotional support, friendship, and Love are manifesting in my life easily and effortlessly, freely and abundantly.”  I thought, oh that is interesting, and then let it go because I had completely let go of the possibility that I would be united with my twin soul in this lifetime.  Then the next week the same slip occurred again.  So I added it to my affirmation and started making room in my consciousness for the possibility.

The next part of the process was that the Universe, through the late summer and fall put me in numerous situations where I got to see how good I had gotten at setting boundaries, speaking my Truth, and just generally taking care of myself.  Since I know that my Spiritual growth process is why I am here and the absolute number 1 priority in my life, I pay attention to all of the “accidents” and “coincidences.”  Everything that happens in my life is part of my growth process.  I take note of it and then file it away to be recalled when the next little bit of the puzzle is revealed.  I was aware that I was gaining more confidence and trust in myself - and that there was a reason that this was happening.  I wasn’t particularly thinking of the relationship thing - I knew it was a possibility, but I have learned to head in the direction that the Universe points me while also letting go of trying to figure out where I am going to end up. The outcome is what I am powerless over - I have the power to take action in a direction / to plant some seeds but then I need to surrender to the Universe being in charge - oh, I will water and weed and tend to the seeds every once in a while but it is important that I not get too focused on any future stuff because then I will miss some of today.

Speaking of today, it is 4:05 AM and I have to move tomorrow.  This newsletter just got long enough.  I want to try to cut down on the size of these Newsletters so the story of the “Amazing, Magnificent, Miraculous, Magical, Fiery eruption of Joy & Love & Dazzling Light” is going to have to wait for Newsletter 99 #2.

Earlier (about 1:30 am) I went for a walk on the beach (full moon tomorrow - it was gorgeous out on the beach all by myself) and was wondering how this Newsletter was going to turn out - I never know for sure where the writing is going when I start - actually that isn’t true.  I know where it is going but I don’t know what the journey is going to be like: how many “tangents” are going to pop up; what I am going to end up writing about that I didn’t expect; what surprises await as the article/newsletter unfolds. It is a pretty exciting and wondrous process and I hope that you out there enjoy it also.  I am having a great time and an Amazingly Wonderful Life Adventure here.  So I will wait until the next newsletter to share with you how my greatest fear came true and how my response to it took me to a place of Joy and Love that is sublimely, exquisitely, magical and mystical and Amazingly miraculous.
 

It is now two days later and this Newsletter is not actually going to go out until February 1st - which it now is.  Oh well.  I have been trying to get clear on whether to include an article entitled An Adventure in Love which is about the “Amazing, Magnificent, Miraculous, Magical, Fiery eruption of Joy & Love & Dazzling Light” I have been mentioning.  And, since I am not feeling clear about it, I am not going to post it at this time.  There must be some changes I need to make or some new info about to appear.  Probably everything is going to change again - it always does.  Anyway, what I am going to do is include the opening of that article in the table below.  It feels as if it is important to put out to the Universe some of the information below - as an affirmation of what is happening and what 1999 is about for me - so here it is.